It's been a while. A year and four months, maybe? And a ton can happen in that time.
Even if I DO return, I have no idea if Venison will actually be the same character. I've certainly changed as a person, and with that, my style of writing and way of thinking.
Looking back, I see I made some grand mistakes RP'ing Venison: Powergaming, wrestling the plot away from other characters, and in general? Destroying the original direction of the Roleplay- which, if you care to look for it, is outlined at the start of Richardson Valley and in the original OOC for Pet Friendly. I don't think fighting pets, feral packs and animal control weren't part of the original idea- at least, not in the way we did them. I can't recall if that was my fault entirely, but Venision REALLY didn't help that.
Sure, it's possible Ven was written well, but he was roleplayed horribly. His weaknesses never really showed and he skirted around things in ways he shouldn't have. For example, how the heck did he manage to get up on stage and sing and impress people with that abysmal charisma score!? It was fun, and people did like the music post, but... it shouldn't have happened in the first place. Things could have gone different. Things SHOULD have gone different. How do I go about fixing so many mistakes? If I were to fix them now, it would seem weird, or even out of character for Venison. All of this is said to convey my feeling that Venison is pretty much un-salvageable in this particular RP as a character.
I like Ven, and I want to RP. But now I'm different and so Ven is different. I'm really unsure that I want to rejoin and certainly have not been keeping up with the RP. Not to mention I haven't RP'd in ages
, so I'll be rusty, AND I have no idea where my RP'ing skills are right now. Heck, I'll even need to go back and read up Ven's backstory again so I can get a handle on his personality and remember what the heck he's done overall.
And really? We had an Alien arc? What the heck? Wasn't RV supposed to be *somewhat* grounded in reality, or something? At least, last I recall when I played here. I don't think I would feel like I'm getting back into the same RP even, at this point- though that would be my fault, being gone for over a year.
I've mostly left the forums for personal reasons besides; namely an association with unneeded stress and a chapter of my life that needed to be done and closed! I finally stepped down as Mod when I felt that the forums deserved more than my constant inactivity and growing lack of interest- I knew the community needed someone who could do better. As Diss noted, I've been largely inactive. I'm simply not as invested in the community anymore. If I hadn't been bugged over Skype, I probably wouldn't have even checked the OOC. I only join the main IRC channel because friends I've gained mess around and talk in it. Sometimes, even, I *gasp* forget to read the newest comic!
Sorry to throw such a massive damper on you all, but you're going to need to be very
convincing and have some very
good ideas if you're going to get me to rejoin. PM me, maybe, if you don't want to clog up the OOC.
However, you do have a start- a main someone that was a very, very important character for Venison. I never thought that Caelei and Pavelle would ever come back. I almost can't believe it! I feel like I'm seeing an old friend again after they dropped off the face of the Earth for, oh, a year?