Joys And Sorrows

Alastair · Post by **Alastair** » Fri May 04, 2012 11:17 pm

ChewyChewy wrote:
Inali wrote:Sorrow: My mom got bit by a tick the other day, and a few days ago, we noticed that the way the bite mark looks had the tell-tell signs of the beginning of Lyme Disease. She went to the doctor Thursday, and the doctor prescribed some kind of antibiotic. I sure hope it's not Lyme Disease, because if it is, then mom's in trouble.

Sorrow: the first of the month sucks, you guys. Especially if you have a job that has anything to do with the public.
Yeeg.... Sorry to hear that. Praying for you.

Thanks Chewy, I really appreciate it.

Only time will tell, I guess.

FlintTheSquirrel · Post by **FlintTheSquirrel** » Fri May 04, 2012 11:59 pm

Joy: I won a contest on Youtube. ^^ I never win contests normally, so I feel quite over-joyed. ^^ The prizes are not the most amazing things sure, but it is still something, a good decoration piece of my choice. :3

Kitela · Post by **Kitela** » Sat May 05, 2012 12:20 am

Sorrow: Lots of issues back home with the family. One being my parents disputing over how my sister is being raised and my dad obviously isn't doing a very good job at it.
Somewhat sorrow: Heard a song that brought back bad memories. It's such a good song though.

FlintTheSquirrel · Post by **FlintTheSquirrel** » Sat May 05, 2012 9:20 am

Sorrow: They turned my favorite Flea Market upside down. Moved all the tables off the convenient lined rows of pavement/gravel to far, spread out tables in the middle of the grass. And very out of the way to. I dunno, it just feels worse and less maintained now, and harder to browse through. They did this however to regulate traffic better due to having some car accidents before.

McFly · Post by **McFly** » Sat May 05, 2012 10:01 pm

Joy: Got to work at the snack bar at school today.

Wolfy · Post by **Wolfy** » Sun May 06, 2012 8:12 am

Hooray: I finally managed to get my Xtransceiver to work. The range is poor but it reaches the bedrooms from the living room so it is good enough.

Sorrow: I hate sundays and I overslept.

Joy: I am going to be alone in the house for a long period of time. Time to listen to some video game song remixes at MAXIMUM VOLUME!

Post by **Sleet** » Sun May 06, 2012 11:29 am

Your Xtranceiver?

JeffCvt · Post by **JeffCvt** » Sun May 06, 2012 11:31 am

From Pokemon Black and White, you can connect with other people who are playing the game at the same time.

I don't know much more, I've never really used it.

0404 · Post by **0404** » Sun May 06, 2012 12:50 pm

Sorrow:back from church while getting socked by rain, I expected no one to be at home but there is my dad. boom No My little ponny today

Post by **Sleet** » Sun May 06, 2012 12:53 pm

Just watch it anyway! Unless he uses the TV or computer or whatever you'd use to watch it.

Radio Blue Heart · Post by **Radio Blue Heart** » Sun May 06, 2012 2:26 pm

Today I told my mom what the school psychologist told me, that I have manic depression and a anxiety disorder. I had avoided telling her for over a year because I was afraid of what she might say. It turns out I was right to.

She told me if I had any problem its from sending too much time by myself. I do have friends and we hang out when we can, but not always because of class, work or studying. I am not really the type of person who goes out to clubs or bars or anything. She told me that in a few years I would be out of school and working full time and that would not permit me time to have "mood swings" or to "feel sorry for myself", as she put it. I tried to explain what manic depression was but she didn't understand. She told me that a routine would help me. This being get up, go to work, go to bed, as opposed to get up, go to class, go to work, go to bed and repeat. In the same conversation she told me that something had been occupying my attention and "taking over my life". I can't think of what that could be. Literally, it is nothing because when I do have time off, I don't know what to do with myself. I only have my routine. I'm not sure how substituting one routine for another will help me, but she does not seem to know what a mental illness is or how to cope with it.

After she told me her solution to my problem, she told me to make perfectly sure that I do not tell anyone because it would be embarrassing to me and the rest of the family, and last thing I needed was for people to think I was crazy. It would only serve to make me look like "a fool".

I am starting to realize how alone I really am.

ChewyChewy · Post by **ChewyChewy** » Sun May 06, 2012 2:34 pm

Radio Blue Heart wrote:Today I told my mom what the school psychologist told me, that I have manic depression and a anxiety disorder. I had avoided telling her for over a year because I was afraid of what she might say. It turns out I was right to.

She told me if I had any problem its from sending too much time by myself. I do have friends and we hang out when we can, but not always because of class, work or studying. I am not really the type of person who goes out to clubs or bars or anything. She told me that in a few years I would be out of school and working full time and that would not permit me time to have "mood swings" or to "feel sorry for myself", as she put it. I tried to explain what manic depression was but she didn't understand. She told me that a routine would help me. This being get up, go to work, go to bed, as opposed to get up, go to class, go to work, go to bed and repeat. In the same conversation she told me that something had been occupying my attention and "taking over my life". I can't think of what that could be. Literally, it is nothing because when I do have time off, I don't know what to do with myself. I only have my routine. I'm not sure how substituting one routine for another will help me, but she does not seem to know what a mental illness is or how to cope with it.

After she told me her solution to my problem, she told me to make perfectly sure that I do not tell anyone because it would be embarrassing to me and the rest of the family, and last thing I needed was for people to think I was crazy. It would only serve to make me look like "a fool".

I am starting to realize how alone I really am.

So sorry to hear that.

Both that you have this disorder and that your mother responded that way.

She's wrong. I spend a LOT of time by myself and I've never "contracted" such a disorder.

Don't listen to her. You clearly need help, and you recognize it, and your mother isn't going to give it to you. What matters isn't how other people perceive you, it's that they get the truth, and that you have help when you need it.

But at the same time, try not to resent her. I don't know why she doesn't understand, but she may honestly think she's acting in your best interests, wrong though she may be.

I'll pray for you.

Post by **Sleet** » Sun May 06, 2012 4:52 pm

This reminds me of how my mom talks about how my internet friends are "distracting" me from what's important, as well as implying that they "corrupt" me. (Disclaimer: I'm an extremely well-behaved and morally-minded young fox.) There really isn't anything you can do other than try to get professional help without her. I do think a routine is good for stuff like that, but it's by no means an excuse to not seek real help.

JeffCvt · Post by **JeffCvt** » Sun May 06, 2012 7:41 pm

Joy/Sorrow: I just listened to a song that I really like to listen to. The song always cheers me up and makes me sad at the same time. I just can't figure it out.

0404 · Post by **0404** » Sun May 06, 2012 7:46 pm

JeffCvt wrote:Joy/Sorrow: I just listened to a song that I really like to listen to. The song always cheers me up and makes me sad at the same time. I just can't figure it out.

I think you find happines from misery... or otherway around

Radio Blue Heart · Post by **Radio Blue Heart** » Sun May 06, 2012 7:51 pm

ChewyChewy wrote:
Radio Blue Heart wrote:Today I told my mom what the school psychologist told me, that I have manic depression and a anxiety disorder. I had avoided telling her for over a year because I was afraid of what she might say. It turns out I was right to.

She told me if I had any problem its from sending too much time by myself. I do have friends and we hang out when we can, but not always because of class, work or studying. I am not really the type of person who goes out to clubs or bars or anything. She told me that in a few years I would be out of school and working full time and that would not permit me time to have "mood swings" or to "feel sorry for myself", as she put it. I tried to explain what manic depression was but she didn't understand. She told me that a routine would help me. This being get up, go to work, go to bed, as opposed to get up, go to class, go to work, go to bed and repeat. In the same conversation she told me that something had been occupying my attention and "taking over my life". I can't think of what that could be. Literally, it is nothing because when I do have time off, I don't know what to do with myself. I only have my routine. I'm not sure how substituting one routine for another will help me, but she does not seem to know what a mental illness is or how to cope with it.

After she told me her solution to my problem, she told me to make perfectly sure that I do not tell anyone because it would be embarrassing to me and the rest of the family, and last thing I needed was for people to think I was crazy. It would only serve to make me look like "a fool".

I am starting to realize how alone I really am.
So sorry to hear that. Both that you have this disorder and that your mother responded that way.

She's wrong. I spend a LOT of time by myself and I've never "contracted" such a disorder.

Don't listen to her. You clearly need help, and you recognize it, and your mother isn't going to give it to you. What matters isn't how other people perceive you, it's that they get the truth, and that you have help when you need it.

But at the same time, try not to resent her. I don't know why she doesn't understand, but she may honestly think she's acting in your best interests, wrong though she may be.

I'll pray for you.

Thank you.

Sun May 06, 2012 8:06 pm

Joy: Avengers. That is all.

Blue Braixen · Post by **Blue Braixen** » Sun May 06, 2012 11:18 pm

RandomGeekNamedBrent wrote:Joy: Avengers. That is all.

Yes. I saw it and it HULK SMASHed all expectations.

Kitela · Post by **Kitela** » Sun May 06, 2012 11:46 pm

Sorry to hear that your mom reacted that way, Radio Blue Heart. Shes sort of right when she says you need a routine (though it seems you already have one) but there is more to that when dealing with depression. It's also ridiculous that shes worrying about embarrassing family.
I can somewhat relate to what your going through and if you want to talk about it, feel free to P.M. me.

Sorrow: My friend is calling me every day while wasted asking when I'm moving back.
Sorrow: My favorite shirt got shrunk in the laundry.
Joy: I think I may now have a real job thanks to a good friend.

Shirosune · Post by **Shirosune** » Mon May 07, 2012 1:33 am

Double Joy: Got kidnapped by a friend over the weekend, had a blast and even got to see Avengers along the way.
Sorrow: Throat feels horrid, and haven't been able to sleep well...I hate getting sick.
Meh: It's storming here tonight...it's not bad but I dislike how the power flickers when this happens.

Wolfy · Post by **Wolfy** » Mon May 07, 2012 4:29 pm

Anger: Lent a "friend" one of my games. I have been asking for it back for three weeks now and he is making up all these pathetic excuses as to why he doesn't bring it in. It is not hard to put a small case inside a bag.
If he hasn't brought it in tommorow I am going straight to my head of year as technically he has stolen my stuff.

McFly · Post by **McFly** » Mon May 07, 2012 5:55 pm

Minor Sorrow: Allergies are such a pain.

44R0NM10 · Post by **44R0NM10** » Tue May 08, 2012 4:36 am

Joy: finally got internet working on my phone again

valerio · Post by **valerio** » Tue May 08, 2012 12:30 pm

Sorrow: the oldest of my three dogs, is in great pain due to the fusion of several vertebrae and the growth of bone excrescenes along the spine. That's because he's 14. He's not operable. I can only treat him with strong painkillers in this last stage of his long life.

Tue May 08, 2012 12:34 pm

Sorry to hear that Val. at least he's lived a long life. Just make him as comfortable as possible.

Wolfy · Post by **Wolfy** » Tue May 08, 2012 1:13 pm

valerio wrote:Sorrow: the oldest of my three dogs, is in great pain due to the fusion of several vertebrae and the growth of bone excrescenes along the spine. That's because he's 14. He's not operable. I can only treat him with strong painkillers in this last stage of his long life.

*Cries and hugs you* I am so sorry to hear that. I mentally give him hugs so that he feels slightly better

Post by **Sleet** » Tue May 08, 2012 5:24 pm

valerio wrote:Sorrow: the oldest of my three dogs, is in great pain due to the fusion of several vertebrae and the growth of bone excrescenes along the spine. That's because he's 14. He's not operable. I can only treat him with strong painkillers in this last stage of his long life.

*gives you a big, warm hug*

Blue Braixen · Post by **Blue Braixen** » Tue May 08, 2012 6:08 pm

Joy: I'm very close to graduating from high school.
Sorrow: I'm losing my ability to hold my tongue...

Post by **Sleet** » Tue May 08, 2012 6:43 pm

What did you say and when?

Post by **Dissension** » Tue May 08, 2012 8:53 pm

He meant the literal ability to physically hold his tongue, Sleet.

Blue Braixen · Post by **Blue Braixen** » Wed May 09, 2012 3:22 pm

Not at all. But it don' mattah, everything worked out anyway.

0404 · Post by **0404** » Wed May 09, 2012 4:28 pm

joy: wohhhhohohohoh 3rd place on longjump!! had a good track and filed day. good luck chram and jeff's good luck worked.

JeffCvt · Post by **JeffCvt** » Wed May 09, 2012 4:29 pm

Joy: My good luck rubbed off on someone!!

TensaZangetsu · Post by **TensaZangetsu** » Wed May 09, 2012 11:17 pm

Where to start where to start!
Whelp let's kick off with good

Good #1: I'm makin' friends and making sure to keep EM
Good #2: having a boyfriend... Not much to say about his personality though <.<
good #tres: finally getting my feelings off my Chest to a friend (not the mate and not what you're thinking about... I think)
Good 4: Music music it's what keeps me sane > W0)
Good 5: I'm back here and hopefully someone missed me
Good 6: Been working on stuff... Pretty much one of the reasons I haven't been on in a while.
Now onto the bad
Bad UNO: I'm failing biology and Geometry
Bad dos: I lost 2 friend (not that they died... They hate me)
Bad 3: I have Depression to deal with and Low (and when I say low I mean barely any) self esteem
Bad 4: my bad moods are what caused my friends to hate me ; A;
Bad5: trouble a Brewin at school
Bad 6: I'm trapped in a 'love Square... Or is it still triangle even with 4'
I have mate and love him. But appatently these 2 guys love me and idk what to tell them. It's stressing me out and I'm at my ends with that
Bad 7: MY GOD IM SO SORRY WOLFY FOR NOT TELLING YOU WHERE I'VE BEEN (wait can I even say this on here? It's been so long and kinda forgot)

So this might be a good look
I'm kinda neutral on. How I'm feeling right now... Best described as not happy nor sad

Shirosune · Post by **Shirosune** » Wed May 09, 2012 11:27 pm

Joy: Dragging a friend with me to D&D tomorrow, it shall be fun.
Joy: Peanut Butter M&Ms.
Sorrow: I'm an arachnophobic type and I just had a spider fall on my leg and go scurrying down it. Now I'm jumping at every little thing that feels 'off'.

TensaZangetsu · Post by **TensaZangetsu** » Wed May 09, 2012 11:50 pm

Shirosune wrote:Joy: Dragging a friend with me to D&D tomorrow, it shall be fun.
Joy: Peanut Butter M&Ms.
Sorrow: I'm an arachnophobic type and I just had a spider fall on my leg and go scurrying down it. Now I'm jumping at every little thing that feels 'off'.

I'm sorry if this is rude, but PFFFFFF HAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!
Y U SO SCARED OF SPIDER!
Spider our friend! Spider good!... Maybe spider wants that Buck fifty ye owe him >.>
(again I'm so sorry if this sounds rude or something. But I couldn't resist the joke)
Anyways. I understand how you feel. I used to fear spiders too. Now I only fear the dangerous ones line the Brown Recluse or the black widow or the Deadly Wolf Spider
Others like the garden variety spiders that are harmless to us I'm alright with.
So... Good luck with that fear and yay I love Peanut Butter M&M's

Wanderer · Post by **Wanderer** » Wed May 09, 2012 11:52 pm

I have read everyone's replies.
But I'm not really sure how to respond to them, however I am quite thankful for all your support!

TensaZangetsu wrote:Where to start where to start!
Whelp let's kick off with good

Good #1: I'm makin' friends and making sure to keep EM
Good #2: having a boyfriend... Not much to say about his personality though <.<
good #tres: finally getting my feelings off my Chest to a friend (not the mate and not what you're thinking about... I think)
Good 4: Music music it's what keeps me sane > W0)
Good 5: I'm back here and hopefully someone missed me
Good 6: Been working on stuff... Pretty much one of the reasons I haven't been on in a while.
Now onto the bad
Bad UNO: I'm failing biology and Geometry
Bad dos: I lost 2 friend (not that they died... They hate me)
Bad 3: I have Depression to deal with and Low (and when I say low I mean barely any) self esteem
Bad 4: my bad moods are what caused my friends to hate me ; A;
Bad5: trouble a Brewin at school
Bad 6: I'm trapped in a 'love Square... Or is it still triangle even with 4'
I have mate and love him. But appatently these 2 guys love me and idk what to tell them. It's stressing me out and I'm at my ends with that
Bad 7: MY GOD IM SO SORRY WOLFY FOR NOT TELLING YOU WHERE I'VE BEEN (wait can I even say this on here? It's been so long and kinda forgot)

So this might be a good look
I'm kinda neutral on. How I'm feeling right now... Best described as not happy nor sad

I was wondering why you weren't here as often! Well it's good that you have a boyfriend and that people desire you. (I don't know a better way to say this) I can't give you any dating advice but I can say that you should not fret over highschool relationships. They usually don't last after graduating. Your friends hate you because of your bad moods... hm... if they're really your friends I don't think they really hate you, probably annoyed with you at most.

TensaZangetsu · Post by **TensaZangetsu** » Wed May 09, 2012 11:58 pm

Wanderer wrote:
TensaZangetsu wrote:Where to start where to start!
Whelp let's kick off with good

Good #1: I'm makin' friends and making sure to keep EM
Good #2: having a boyfriend... Not much to say about his personality though <.<
good #tres: finally getting my feelings off my Chest to a friend (not the mate and not what you're thinking about... I think)
Good 4: Music music it's what keeps me sane > W0)
Good 5: I'm back here and hopefully someone missed me
Good 6: Been working on stuff... Pretty much one of the reasons I haven't been on in a while.
Now onto the bad
Bad UNO: I'm failing biology and Geometry
Bad dos: I lost 2 friend (not that they died... They hate me)
Bad 3: I have Depression to deal with and Low (and when I say low I mean barely any) self esteem
Bad 4: my bad moods are what caused my friends to hate me ; A;
Bad5: trouble a Brewin at school
Bad 6: I'm trapped in a 'love Square... Or is it still triangle even with 4'
I have mate and love him. But appatently these 2 guys love me and idk what to tell them. It's stressing me out and I'm at my ends with that
Bad 7: MY GOD IM SO SORRY WOLFY FOR NOT TELLING YOU WHERE I'VE BEEN (wait can I even say this on here? It's been so long and kinda forgot)

So this might be a good look
I'm kinda neutral on. How I'm feeling right now... Best described as not happy nor sad
I was wondering why you weren't here as often! Well it's good that you have a boyfriend and that people desire you. (I don't know a better way to say this) I can't give you any dating advice but I can say that you should not fret over highschool relationships. They usually don't last after graduating. Your friends hate you because of your bad moods... hm... if they're really your friends I don't think they really hate you, probably annoyed with you at most.

That... Actually made me feel better
Sorrow: INSOMNIA! always friggin keeping me up at night > 3>

ChewyChewy · Post by **ChewyChewy** » Thu May 10, 2012 10:29 am

Sorrow: My addiction is causing me to lose sleep, and my physical health is suffering as a result.

0404 · Post by **0404** » Thu May 10, 2012 12:32 pm

ChewyChewy wrote:Sorrow: My addiction is causing me to lose sleep, and my physical health is suffering as a result.

Here, have a glass of warm milk. What kind of addiction is it? Sorry if it's touchy subject.

Joy+sorrow?: had a good dream last night. My old crush was there, but we only talked about how life is going