I'll...check the police records, I guess....Beagle wrote:I really just need to vent: I am so freaking stressed out right now it isn't even funny. It's nearing towards the end of senior year, and for those of you who have been through it yourselves, there is so much to do all at one time! I have five weeks left in my three college classes, and with that comes two papers in English (50% of my grade), six psychology assignments, and history reading/classroom forum posts, biweekly reading quizzes, and a final worth 25% of my final grade. And the teachers that I really, really need to help me, because they're basically the only people that can/will help me, are too busy with the other 60+ students they have throughout the day.
Not to mention next week, the week before spring break, is the end of the grading period for my high school classes. The last time I checked my Calculus BC grade, it was a 95%. That was before I made a 60 on last week's quiz. The test this Tuesday will replace the grade if I make higher on it, but freaking sequences and series in Calculus BC are murder, and we've barely worked with the material plus she's throwing in stuff we haven't seen before. I would really like to finish this grading period with a 92.5% so my final GPA will reflect an 'A' in the course.
Not to mention the AP exam is coming up in a month and a half, and I'm going to have to start cracking the whip and studying so I'll pass it, making time between all my other commitments. Because 60% of the AP exam is material from a year ago in AB Calculus, that sounds like the best idea ever!
Hey, at least I have spring break to look forward to, right? Nope! So next week, I have an English paper due, a Psychology paper, a Psychology quiz, reading material and three forum posts and a reading quiz in Western Civilization, plus that Calculus test, then on Friday, my parents are dragging me to spend five days in Tennessee with my oh-so-lovely family. And when I say that they live even further in the boondocks than I do, I mean that my dad is going to have to drive me 45 minutes to a McDonald's one day just so I can work on my online classes, because there is no such thing as "internet" where I'm going. And since I was basically forced into taking five days off, three of those days that I always work, my job is probably going to schedule me for almost every night before I leave, leaving me to deal with this massive workload from school in a lot of late nights, and probably every single day when I get back from Tennessee. Hey look, it's my spring break! Aaaaaand... it's gone. Before it even starts.
My sleeping patterns have been crap lately too, not being able to fall asleep before midnight when I have to be up at 6 AM the next day, and every single freaking time I manage to fall asleep in a nap in the afternoon, my dad comes in my room, screaming for me to wake up. My parents are pushing me beyond my breaking point, depriving me of time dedicated to sleep, work, and study, and I am going to explode by the end of these next two weeks. I also expect to get no sleep during my "break" with a screaming toddler in the house.
I also have scholarships I need to fill out (I'm trying my best to not even have to take out the yearly $2,500 low-interest loan at State) that are due right when we come back from break.
Speaking of money, with all this time I'm having to request off of work from forced "vacations" and things I need to do that are a natural part of senior year, it makes me mad that my parents are pushing me to request off even more time for this "vacation" when they certainly aren't willing to supplement the resulting loss of my income by paying for my prom ticket, dinner money for prom, lunch money for the field trip, or any of the trips I'm planning.
Prom, prom, prom. 'Tis the season to worry about haircuts and spending far too long with friends deciding where to go for dinner and whose car to drive and whatnot.
And then we have my college to-do check list, like getting my medical records up-to-date and submitted, plus orientation registering, finding a potential roommate, etc.
It also bothers me that for the past three weeks, every time I've been off of work, the four friends I actually have left in this area are busy with band, musical, or youth group. I just need somewhere to stay at other than going home to my house when I'm not at work or school. I just want to go out on a Saturday night and be a freaking teenager while I've still got the chance. I'm also having issues with one friend in particular, and I really wish we wouldn't be playing a game of cat and mouse, instead just talking it out and letting me have one less thing to worry about, but I'm at my freaking wits' end with it. That one actually might have to wait a while until I'm done doing a pirouette off the freaking handle with stress and anxiety.
I am going to end up freaking sick again or making my insomnia even worse. Huuuuurgh.
Actually now if I seem offline more than usual, you guys now know why. Just someone do me a favor and check up on me and make sure I haven't killed anyone yet, okay?
Bleh.
Seriously, so sorry about all that! I hope things get better for you.