29. There’s no escape
Word “unhappy” was not enough to describe what Matt was feeling at this moment.
It seemed there’s no escape from his fate he tried to avoid so much. He won’t hooky on his first day of school today. He won’t run away and wander somewhere around to waste time or find some place with an arcade where he can unleash his bad emotions on joysticks and red buttons.
Because Bino won’t let him run away.
“So you thought you could escape me?” Matt heard Bino’s proud voice behind his back.
Matt wrinkled his forehead and pursed his lips.
“I wasn’t trying to escape from you,” Matt said with slight anger in his tone. “I was just… doing morning exercises.”
“Across other people’s yards?” Bino asked him.
Matt’s upper lip trembled.
“I wanted to practice hurdling…” Matt replied. “By the way, is it really necessary to bind my hands? You’re twisting my wrists and its starting to hurt! What are you, a cop or what!”
In response, Matt felt on his wrists a stronger grip, causing him to bite his lower lip.
“Don’t complain. Just keep walking.” Bino said to Matt and pushed him to make the boy walk faster.
Matt started to scramble and said a couple of complaints, expressing his discontent about the entire situation. But all of his words were getting into void as Bino was not listening to him and kept leading him, holding the boy’s wrists firmly. Matt jerked with his arms a few more times and added some more complaints about Bino, but then he calmed down and hung his head, realizing that his actions are leading nowhere and feeling embarrassed to be led like a criminal by a dog.
Both of them kept walking like that, crossing few streets on their way. Although Matt was piercing the ground with his glance most of the time, he still could see everything around him and he was glad they haven’t met any neighbor or pet on their way, or he wouldn’t show himself for weeks on neighborhood streets, afraid to hear laugh and mockeries under his address.
When Matt was thinking about all of this, he suddenly felt something yanking his twisted hands, causing him to stop. When he turned his head with questioning look, Bino gestured with his head to look ahead.
Matt looked at Bino suspiciously for a moment, but then he turned his head away from his dog to see what could be in front of him.
Expecting to see an elegant bench, stylish post with clear timetable and flowers surrounding the bus stop as it should be in this “paradise” neighborhood, to his surprise he saw something totally different. Everywhere around the place was wet ground and decayed grass, flies were flying around and in place where people were supposed to sit were two askew desks carelessly nailed to snags and all sticked with webs underneath. The only thing that could tell this awful place was is an askew post with barely visible symbol of bus on top of it.
Matt continued to look at the bus stop with gimlet eyes. The place looked like it was abandoned for ages and it was contrasting with all modern and friendly looking houses that were nearby. But after looking for a couple of seconds at the poor bus stop, Matt frowned and pierced the ground with his glare again.
“Okay Mr. Herder
, you brought me to the place of my porridge, now let go of me!!
” Matt said with sarcasm and frustration.
Bino freed Matt’s hands from his grip and the teen quickly brought them together, intensively massaging his aching wrists. Matt looked through his shoulder as he was still rubbing his wrists, giving his dog a glare full of hatred and then he walked to provisional bench.
Just when Matt stopped massaging his wrists and was about to take a sit, he noticed some marks of nails on desks and a small sign engraved by a penknife:“avenge us”
Matt scratched his temple as he read the sign few times more. He wasn’t sure is someone making a bad joke or is there actually a reason why this bus stop looks like it’s haunted. But he shook off the awkward feeling that was circulating in his head and placed his hand on the bench to position himself to sit.
When Matt sat heavily on the desks, the bench crunched horribly and moved backwards, causing him to lift his arms for balance from sudden shock.
Matt kept his arms in air for some time, afraid that his single move can cause the bench to break and fall off it. His face was whole pale and his eyes were wide open all the time.
When his shock passed, he slowly lowered his arms to check if anything would happen. When his hands touched the edge of desk and slowly gripped it, he sighed from relief, being sure that his place he sits on is stable and he won’t end up on the floor.
Relief, however, didn’t last too long. All of a sudden the bench creaked terribly again as Bino sat near him and the boy gripped the edge of desk stronger and clenched his teeth tight.
“Hey, watch it!!
” Matt yelled at Bino from fear the dog caused him.
Bino placed his right leg on his left knee and placed both of his hands behind the bench.
“Oh, sorry,” Bino said carelessly, looking up the sky. “I thought it’s okay to sit since the bench haven’t broke under your weigh.”
“What do you mean under my weight
??” Matt frowned. “Do I look like a fatso to you?!”
“Well, there must be a reason why you were doing morning exercises today,” Bino said, lifting his hand and checking his claws with his thumb. “It’s okay if you want to loose some weigh and get athletic body like mine. Besides, there’s no need to get so touchy. I wasn’t trying to offend you… this time.”
Matt’s face turned red and he turned his head away from Bino, waving his mane in the process.
“My weight is fine. I watch over my line.” He said, raising his chin.
“And I understand that the donuts and cola that are on your desk are ingredients of your diet?” Bino stopped checking his claws and looked at Matt with a smirk.
The redness on Matt’s face gained deeper color.
“I have a fast metabolism…” Matt muttered under his breath, lowering his head and crossing his arms.
Matt placed his elbow on his thigh and supported his head on his hand. He sighed deeply, scratching his forehead and closing his eyes to drift into thoughts.
His situation seemed to be hopeless. From the beginning he planned to skip school and go somewhere where he could be alone. But in his path to realize those plans was standing Bino, who was costing him his poor health and nerves. The dog was so stubborn in shattering his life that it makes Matt feel like heavens sent this dog upon him as a punishment for all his sins.
If his mom and dad wouldn’t brought Bino home, he wouldn’t be stressed so much and right now he would be somewhere at the river bank drinking something gassy or trying to set a high score at flipper in some arcade. Instead, he has to sit on a forgotten by everyone bus stop, guarded by his furred torturer.
And just when he started to think that his life starts to suck even more than ever, he suddenly got out of his thoughts as he felt a nudge at his side.
Matt turned his head to see Bino who was kicking one of his legs in air and was supporting himself with his hands on the back of the bench, tilting his head and looking up the blue sky.
He also noticed that their bodies were touching each other. It was making Matt feel disgusted. He tried to move aside so he could make some space between them, but to his discontent he noticed that he already sits at the edge and if he would try to move, he would fall off the bench. So all he could do was to slouch and somehow swallow this nastiness of his situation.
Time was flowing and nothing interesting was happening on the street. The only way you could tell there was life somewhere, was in the distance with voices of some talks or barks. But since Matt and Bino came to the bus stop, no one appeared on the street.
If there would be anyone walking on the sidewalk or even a car would drive through the street from time to time, he would bear it somehow. But since the whole street was totally empty and the only one alive here was Bino who he hates to be with, it all was influencing him with dread.
All this time nor Bino or Matt didn’t exchange any word. Bino even started to hum something under his breath and Matt started to play with his fingers.
And just when Matt was focused on touching his fingertips rhythmically against each other, he started to think again how to run away from Bino and escape from going to school.
After a couple of seconds, he stopped playing with his fingers and froze when his mind started to form an idea.
Matt suddenly stood up.
“Oh no!” He said with worried tone and placed his hand on top of his head. “I left my pad in the house! Without it I won’t be able to note important things at school!”
Bino looked with curiosity at Matt and took his leg off his knee.
“I’ll better go fast before the bus will arrive,” Matt said to Bino as he started to walk away with haste. “It won’t take me long. I’ll be right back.”
Matt did not even look behind to see is Bino following. But since he didn’t hear any footsteps, he was sure that his dog had stayed at the bus stop.
It seemed his plan worked. But it was not over yet. All that was left to reach the turn was not very far away from him. And when he’ll turn into next street, he’ll be able to run away and free himself from Bino and school.
But getting to this turn seemed to take forever to him, despite it was just few steps away. Matt could feel cold drop of sweat running down his nape and his legs seemed to be like they were stiff.
He wanted to reach this turn so badly.
Just a little more…
“Wait! I’ve got one with me!”
Matt stopped. He let out a sound like he swallowed something big and clenched his trembling hand into fist.
When he turned his head slightly to see through his arm, he could see Bino standing at the bus stop, raising the pad he hold in his hand high.
“I can lend you mine!” Bino shouted, dangling the pad in air so Matt could see it.
Matt’s eyes went to the place where both streets met each other. The turning was just two steps away from him. He was so close to salvation…
Matt closed his eyes for a moment and turned around to walk back to the bus stop.
When Matt was getting closer to Bino, the dog stretched out his arm to teen, offering his pad.
Just when Matt was about to take the pad from Bino, he suddenly stopped and raised his finger on the length of his temple.
“I also forgot to take a pen.” He shook his finger and turned around again to walk away in same direction he was going earlier.
He didn’t go too far.
“I also have a spare pen.” Bino said to Matt’s back.
Matt’s shoulders raised high and he quickly turned to Bino with surprised gaze.
“You can have it.” Bino said as he hold the pen in his other hand.
Matt bit his lower lip and he started to breath faster. The perspective of escape was getting away further and further.
But when he kept looking at the pen, he used his last resort that came into his mind.
“That’s very nice of you,” Matt pretended to be courteous. “But this pen is blue. And in school they prefer black ones. For exams and such…”
Matt’s words surprised Bino and the dog looked suspiciously at the boy. But then he shrugged and put his fingers into his collar.
After a brief moment of rummaging in his green collar, he took out another pen. With a black cap.
Bino hid the blue pen back into his collar and brought the black one to his pad. Then he offered both of them to Matt.
Matt just stood there still, looking with disbelief on what Bino was holding in his hand. The he stretched out his hand and slowly gripped the pen and pad, making a sound of rustle and squash of leather.
“T h a n k.....y o u
” Matt said as polite as he could, holding himself to not throw the pen on the ground with force and rip the pad into pieces. Then he passed Bino and walked slowly back to the bench.
“Heh, you’re welcome,” Bino said, looking at Matt through his shoulder with irreverent glance and with his hand on his hip. “And don’t forget about such things next time. I won’t be around you like a caregiver and help you because you can’t organize yourself properly.”
Matt sat back on the unstable bench, making the same horrible noise as before. He placed his elbows on his things and hung his head. Just when he closed his eyes, the bench rocked and both Matt and Bino were sitting together again.
“I don’t get it. How could you forget about pen and pad for notes?” Bino said to Matt with complaint, gesticulating with his open hand. “You knew you were going to need it and still you forgot to take those things with you? Then how were you preparing yourself before leaving?”
Matt didn’t respond to Bino’s reprimands. He just kept his head low and pretended to not hear anything of this.
“Besides, how long till your bus will arrive?” Bino placed his hands behind his head and looked at the sky with annoyance. “This boredom is killing me!”
Matt lifted his head and looked at Bino with displease.
“Why won’t you go home than and… play with a bouncing ball or other ‘dog’ things,” He said with cold tone. “You don’t have to sit here with me, I’m not forcing you to do so.”
Bino tilted his head.
“I wish I could,” He replied. “But I need to keep an eye on you…”
Bino’s eyes grew wide and he placed two fingers on his lips as he realized he said something he shouldn’t had.
Matt shook his head and blinked few times.
“What?” He said with eyes wide opened. “What did you just said?”
Bino slid his fingers off his lips and scratched his temple.
“I mean… to make sure you’ll get to the bus safe.” Bino looked back at Matt with serious expression. “Yes. You’re my dad so I’m just…”
“To keep an eye on me
?” A frown started to appear above his eyes as he leaned a bit closer to Bino. “ What is this all about, what is going on here??”
Bino raised his hands in defense and leaned back.
“No, I just…”
“It was my old man’s idea, right?” Matt leaned even closer to Bino, with his fist in front and with wildness in his pupils. “It was his plan to check on me will I go to school, am I right??”
Bino didn’t answer. He knew it was pointless to lie now so he looked away and started to play with his fingers.
Matt clenched his teeth and his ears started to become crimson red. Then he slowly turned his head away and slapped his right thigh from anger.
“I should have known!” He said loudly, gripping his thigh with his fingers. “He’ll do everything to control my every move!”
Matt’s eyes were moving on sides all the time and he was breathing deeply as anger on his father was raging deep in his heart. He couldn’t believe that his father used Bino to stalk him. Now he really wanted to skip his first day at school as an act of revenge.
But he took one deep breath and closed his eyes for a moment. When he opened them, he turned his head to Bino who was avoiding eye contact.
“Okay. What did he offer you?” Matt asked Bino a question.
Bino stopped playing with his fingers from nervousness and looked back.
“I don’t know what are you talking about.” Bino answered and immediately turned his face away from Matt.
“Oh come on, I’m not stupid.” Matt kept to push on Bino. “I know my father for sixteen years. He wouldn’t just simply order you to follow me and make sure I’ll go to school without offering you anything. Not to mention you’ve already proven your disloyalty…"
He muttered quietly under his breath.
Bino said nothing, but his qualm could be visible as he put his arms together and placed them on his stomach.
“What did he offer you? Money? Or something else?” Matt continued his interrogation.
The poor dog only looked down and rubbed his foot against other.
Slowly, on Matt’s face started to appear a wicked smile as he found another opportunity to make his day won.
“And… how about I offer you something more? Hmm?” Matt said with a soft and friendly tone.
Bino’s eyes started to grow big and he started to look around nervously. But he still was avoiding eye contact with Matt.
The boy leaned his face closer to Bino’s ear
“I may be rough to people sometime, But I know how to come to agreements.” Matt said softly to Bino’s dangling ear. “Whatever my old man offered you, I can offer much, much more.”
Bino shivered as he heard Matt’s seductive words being spoken directly into his ear. He tried to move aside to get away from him, but he noticed there was no space on the bench to do so.
“You won’t buy me.” Bino said with weak and unsure voice.
Matt placed his arm around Bino’s shoulders and dragged the dog closer to him.
“I confess. I don’t want to go to school.” Matt said. “But I understand you. I know you’re doing this to get a gain. I would do the same thing if I was in your place. So I don’t blame you. But think about it. By allowing me to skip lessons, I’ll be very grateful to you and I’ll reward you greatly. Just tell me what you need.”
Bino clasped his hands and placed them on his lap, rubbing his thumbs against each other and biting his lips. He was feeling discomfort and probably would take off Matt’s arm with force and run away, but the seed of temptation was already sown as Matt could see from Bino’s body language.
Finally, Bino looked directly into Matt’s light blue eyes with serious expression.
“Why should I believe you?” Bino asked, looking at him suspiciously.
Matt only smirked.
“Because I’m desperate to not go to that blasted school.” Matt explained. “And I’ll do anything to not go there. I’ll give you anything you want. I won’t go to school and you will earn something for yourself. Wolf full and sheep untouched."
Bino turned his head away again and closed his eyes shut. When he felt Matt gripping his arm lightly and stroking it, he looked at Matt’s face again.
“Anything?” He asked with shining pupils.
Matt’s smirk turned into devilish as he felt that Bino was falling into his seducing arms.
“Anything.” Matt replied softly, but with slightly dark tone.
Bino grinned widely and his butter eyes grew big. This sight only made Matt’s heart pump faster with joy as he was sure now that his iniquitous plan worked.
He wasn’t sure yet if he would really give something to Bino for letting him escape. But he turned him onto his side and for now that was all that was important.
“Well since you say so, I made a list of things I need in case if someone would try to gain my favors to save his own skin.” Bino said with happiness in his voice, making Matt’s smile to drop all of a sudden.
Bino reached into his collar and started to search for something. After few seconds he took out some white roll and the same blue pen he tried to lend Matt earlier. With a sure move of his fingers, the roll felt down and it rolled across the street.
Matt looked with pure astonishment on the extremely long paper that was ending on the other side of the street.
Bino brought the pen to his lips and gnawed its edge as he looked at the list of things he needs.
“Hmm. Some of it accumulated by this time.” Bino said with muffled voice as he kept gnawing the pen and glance at the list.. The he took the pen out of his mouth and touched the paper with its edge. “So I’ll start from the beginning. I need your full attention because you’ll have to remember what I read to you. First thing I need is a new game for my PSP. The one I would want is from “Ben 10”, but I prefer the first one from the “alien force” series since I already beat the game from the original saga. The second thing…” He slid his pen down the paper until he reached the next point. “I want the kit for the model aircraft of B-24 J. It’s a limited edition because of the jaws that are painted on nose so you will have to put some effort into searching. Third, I need a new rubber chicken. The one I currently have has its head almost ripped off. And it’s not squeaking anymore. And the next thing…”
Matt was looking at Bino and his few meters long list with his eyes coming out from their orbits, jaw dropped and his head tilted to the right.
“Y-you’re kidding, right?
” Matt somehow managed to say with trembling tone.
“Of course not!” Bino looked back at Matt with annoyed expression. “And don’t interrupt me because I’m not going to read entire list again for you! Now where were we…” His glance went back on his list. “Ah yes. Point sixth. They recently let out new gaming cards for…”
That’s not how Matt imagined this. It was supposed to be totally different and easy. He thought he will trick Bino like some child - on lollipop, ice cream, chocolate bar, some money… but such horrendous blackmail came totally unexpected.
For a moment he believed he succeeded. But sudden shock of seeing a roll of paper with written demands that was ending on the opposite side of the place where he was sitting quickly brought him to the ground.
“D-dude! You can’t do this to me!
” Matt said desperately as he tried to look at Bino with serious expression. “You can’t just let me pick one choice at least?! This is daylight robbery!!
Suddenly Matt felt like temperature dropped and a cold shiver went down his spine as he heard a familiar sound.
He turned his head and he saw something yellow in the distance. With fear in his eyes he realized it was a school bus that was coming closer…
Bino took his glance off his list and also looked for the source of sound.
“Oh. The bus is coming.” He said merrily, quickly forgetting what he was doing earlier. ”We’ll get you in it and I can finally go to Fox’s house to take him out for some games at the park.”
Bino grabbed the plastic roll by its edges and he started to roll back the extremely long paper. After some quick moves with his fingers the list disappeared from the street in no time and Bino could hide his roll back into his collar.
Although the bus was coming to the bus stop pretty fast, for Matt it was taking eternity. His pupils were growing wide as the bus was getting closer and his heart was pumping faster when the whir of engine was becoming louder.
Matt knew that if this bus will come here, it will be end. He was staring at the bus with huge eyes like he was trying to stop it with his sight, but the vehicle was still mercilessly getting closer to the stop.
The long yellow bus finally reached its destination and it stopped in front of him with a screech of tires. Then the entrance slowly opened with a sound of exhaled air and the bus honked two times as it was inviting to get on board.
Matt only hung his head low, brought his knees together and gripped the edge of the bench strongly. Fear paralyzed him completely.
Bino stood up and walked over Matt.
“The bus is here.” He said with his hands on his waist. “You should get in.”
Matt still remained in same position, only his face became more pale and his head went even lower.
Bino growled from annoyance as he saw that Matt was not reacting to his word.
“Hey, the bus is here!” Bino said louder as he bent over to Matt and showed the bus with his hand.
Matt suddenly lifted his head and glared at Bino with desperation in his eyes.
” He yelled. “I’m not going anywhere! I won’t let myself to be treated like that! I decide where I go and you won’t force me to do otherwise!!
Bino’s eyes flared up.
“You will go!!
” He yelled back, then grabbed Matt by his legs and started to pull him.
Matt started to slid off the bench, but the boy somehow managed to turn in air and grab the bench with both hands before he left down.
Matt was now hanging in air, desperately holding the bench that was horribly squeaking with each pull by Bino.
“UGH! Don’t… *huff* behave… *puff* like a pansy!
” Bino said, puffing from effort. “Just… *huff* get in so… *huff* I.. *huff* can finally get my *puff* reward!
Bino was pulling strong and only thanks to his belt Matt still had his jean on him. But the boy gripped the desk of the bench strong and he wasn’t even thinking about giving up.
“NO, NO, NO!!!
” Matt screamed out loudly like someone was skinning him alive. “I DON’T WANT TO!!! I DON’T WANT TO GO THERE!!!
The bench became really tight because of the pulls but despite its ugly outlook, the two thin stumps were still holding well in the ground. The only elements that could bother were puffs, moans and horrifying squeaks.
However, a tiny spider who had his wed under the desks of the bench suddenly went out and appeared on surface. And just by coincidence the spider run on top of Matt’s hand.
Matt had his eyes closed shut all the time and was busy with holding the bench with all force and screaming horribly. But he instinctively opened his eyes and his pupils grew when he saw a spider on his right hand.
” He screamed on top of his lungs and shook his hand violently to get rid of the insect.
That was a mistake. Just when Matt took his right hand off the bench to shake off the spider and kept holding with only one hand, Bino pulled strong and Matt hit the ground hard with his chin.
Bino wasn’t wasting any time. He dragged Matt closer to school bus and then he tried to lift the teen by grabbing him by his collar with both hands, but he had difficulties since Matt was actually heavy for him. After letting out few grunts, Bino finally lifted Matt’s body and began to move it to the entrance of the bus.
But Matt was not going to give up so easily
Just when he was about to be pushed through the entrance, Matt used his hands to block himself from getting in.
Bino tried to push Matt with his own body, but Matt was too resistant.
“HELP!!! SOMEBODY!!! PLEASE HEEEELP!!! THEY’RE TRYING TO KIDNAP MEEEE!!!
” Matt yelled desperately, hoping that someone will hear him.
Matt could still feel how Bino was trying to push him with his arm, but he managed to look inside the bus while resisting.
In the place for driver was sitting a man who was wearing a light blue uniform, had a mustache and his curly head was sticking out from the bottom of his hat. There was no emotion on his face and he was looking ahead all the time.
“Man… guh! Help me…” Matt tried to say as he kept fighting with Bino.
The driver didn’t react, neither he blinked or moved. He just kept sitting in same position and continued to look ahead.
On the other side of the bus, Bino was still struggling to push Matt inside. He supported his shoulders on Matt’s and pushed with his legs with all strength, but Matt was still holding well.
Other positions also failed. It seemed that the teen was too stubborn or too frightened to get into the bus.
And just when Bino was stroking his temple and thinking what to do, he opened his eyes as an idea formed in his head.
He reached again into his collar and started to search for something.
Meanwhile Matt started to struggle, like he tried to get from Bino’s grasp and escape.
Bino was still trying to find the object he is looking for, but Matt was now making his job harder since now he also had to hold him from preventing him to escape and watch out to not get his eye hit by Matt’s elbow.
After some time, Bino felt with his fingers the object he was looking for and he took it out from his collar.
In his fingers was a long pin that shined dangerously.
Bino closed his left eye and aimed for the place where the “back”
was lost and long forgotten.
“AAAAIIIGHHH!!!” Matt screamed horribly as he felt a painful pinprick behind himself and grabbed the place where it hurt.
Bino took this opportunity and pushed Matt inside the buss with full might.
Matt landed on stairs on his knees. When he got back into his senses, he turned his head around and noticed that Bino was… outside. He stood up and hurled at the dog, but the automatic doors suddenly closed in front of him and his hands landed on plastic windows.
He was looking at the doors totally shocked, not believing that he was inside the bus and freedom was on the other side. And when his eyes went on Bino who was standing outside looking at him with calmness, he glared at him and started to hit the plastic windows with his open palms.
” Matt yelled from the other side of the doors and kept slamming the windows. “I’LL GET YOU FOR THIS!!!
Bino was not amused by this words. He still stayed calm and he only put his hands behind himself as he kept watching Matt who was slamming the bus door like he was trying to break them down.
Matt gave the plastic windows few more hits as he felt that his hands start to hurt. He stopped, but the urge to get Bino into his hands remained so Matt glued his face to the window.
“Mark my words!! I will
come back!!” Matt yelled to Bino. “You hear me?! I will return and make you pay for this!!
Suddenly Matt felt a jerk and Bino started to move aside with the entire surrounding. The bus started to go forward.
“AND DON’T TOUCH ANYTHING IN MY ROOM OR I’LL DESTROY YOU!!!
” Matt shouted for the last time before he lost his sight on Bino.
Bino observed how the bus left a dark cloud of fumes behind it and was going away. Just when it made some distance, Matt appeared on the rear window and also glued himself to it. Then the yellow bus was farther and farther away until it turned into a yellow dot and then disappeared behind horizon.
The wind blew Bino’s fur gently as the dog was still standing at the bus stop and was looking in the distance where the bus drove away.
The edges of his lips started to tremble and then on his muzzle appeared a mischievous grin. Later he turned around, slouched, rubbed his hands vigorously and let out a quiet, evil laugh.
His mission was accomplished. Now he can get his two dollars, get Fox and Rex out the neighborhood, and then he has Matt’s room only for himself…
You’re probably wondering why on earth this fan fic was not updated over a month. Well… there are some things that complicated updating.
The first thing comes from my personal life.
I must confess that I’m not doing well. I can even say that my life is at the phaset where there seems to be no escape from anything.
Over a month now I have bad relations with my parents. Mostly with my father who tries to totally control my ways of living and recently offended me. We don’t even talk to each other, except saying “hi” and “bye”. And when you live in one house with parents with who you are in conflict, it all has a influence on whatever you doing. For me, it has on writing, photographing, studying, communication with others… even with such simple thing like browsing forum.
No money does not help either. And it’s difficult for me to find a job where you can work at weekends and study in weeks. What is worse, people look only for those who are “experienced”.
My health is ruined too. I recently found out that I have a disease that causes me to feel tired all the time. So no matter how long I will sleep, I will be tired and without energy all the time. Also my reactions are slow. Sometimes people think I’m a weirdo who thinks way slower than others. It hurts. But there’s nothing I can do.
I also have some strange goo in my left side of my nose that causes me to have headaches often and something is wrong with my left eyes as well.
For the first time in my life… I honestly don’t know what to do. Of course I should cure all of this. But that requires money. But to have money, you need a job. And unfortunately I can’t ask my parents for money. Knowing my father, in future he might use it against me.
But despite those awful circumstances, I do believe I will stand up. Slowly, but I will.
The second aspect why this update was delayed is because like I said earlier, my Beta Reader, Obbl, disappeared in mysterious circumstances. I don’t know what’s going on with him, but I hope he’s doing okay and he will return to us soon. Meanwhile I had to find some help to finally post this update. One kind person decided to give me a helping hand.
This chapter was revised by musclecar326
. Thank you mate for your help and sparing your free time on checking my work. I’m really grateful to you.
Musclecar also agreed to revise my updates for a bit. So for now, all chapters will be checked by him.
I must confess I feel really ashamed for keeping you waiting for entire month. I screwed up and I’m sorry for this. But I will bring things together and everything will be fine again. I believe in it.